Today I finally got it , i got the answer to my every question, of course it's not a very useful answer, but it actually fits every question about him, abou me, my future, my life… and the answer I got (which probably was send to me by God himself) is: “if you don’t know, no one will know before you”.
I know what you are thinking, I hate the answer too, because it’s not a solution to anything; but not every answer is a solution doesn’t it? But every solution and every answer may, can and, most likely, will lead to another conflict that’s probably how life is build, one question that leads to an answer, such answer leads to another question that will lead to an answer again and so goes on until you reach a solution, when you reach it it’s a must that another question will pop up,right the way.. chaos u may say? But it’s only life itself.
I know what you are thinking, I hate the answer too, because it’s not a solution to anything; but not every answer is a solution doesn’t it? But every solution and every answer may, can and, most likely, will lead to another conflict that’s probably how life is build, one question that leads to an answer, such answer leads to another question that will lead to an answer again and so goes on until you reach a solution, when you reach it it’s a must that another question will pop up,right the way.. chaos u may say? But it’s only life itself.
He is probably sitting quietly relaxing at his home, connected to messenger not knowing that with that action he takes all my breath away, I feel like a punch right in the middle of the stomach each time that that lil window pops up telling me that he is online, I hate him almost as much as I love him, but, unaware of it, he normally leaves right before I go nuts, before I cross that thin line I once talked about the thin line between “crazy obsessive teenage love” (which I proudly accept) and “psycho killer girl” (which I was going to turn into if I wouldn’t have managed to contact him after such a long decade).